Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Oh BABY!

The morning of October 6th was a looooong morning...One of my girls named Amanda woke me up at 3:30...I said a little prayer, "dear God please oh please don't let it be that her water broke." I was relieved when she told me that she was having contractions. I thought to myself...okay contractions I can handle this.. I was up with Amanda until about 7am...helping her breath through the pain...trying all different techniques of how to help her get through the pain. She finally fell asleep around 8am. I went back to bed myself...praying that she could hold off a couple more days until another houseparent was on duty. I knew in my mind that there would be no way that she could hold that baby in for two more days.  

At around 10:30am I heard from my bedroom "MISS KENDRA!!!!!" Oh great I thought...here we go...baby on the way... sure enough her water had broke! She and I got everything together as fast as possible and jumped into the van. Living in the country I am learning that a country mile is way different than a city mile. It took us nearly 40 minutes to get to the hospital. I kept telling Amanda to breath...and she kept yelling, "those breathing techniques are so overrated!"

Everything seemed to go so fast once we got to the hospital. Amanda freaked out a little when she found out that she had to have a c-section...but she kept telling me not to leave her. My heart broke...I looked around...and thought... this girl has no one here...her father wasn't there...her mother wasn't there...the baby's dad wasn't there. I looked at her and said, "where am I going to go, I am here for you." I couldn't imagine being 17 and laying in a hospital bed...and the only person there to comfort her is someone who she had only known for a month.  I never left her side... in fact they let me go back with her during the c-section.

I think that this is cool...you on the other hand...may not. At one point the doctor made an incision and blood splattered over the curtain...and well...got on my robe =)... The doctor then told me to look over the curtain... at that moment they were pulling baby from mommy... OH WOW OH WOW!!!! AMAZING!!! My whole world stopped in those moments. It was amazing!  The doctor took my phone from me and went to take a video of baby Chloe. I wish I could share that video with you... but for security reasons I can't.

After all was said and done... In the recovery room Amanda looked at me and told me that I was like the big sister that she could never find. I thanked God that in the short month that I had been there...Amanda saw me like that. It was such a blessing for me to be a part of!


Right before the C-Section




Wednesday, September 26, 2012

...sex is okay...or so they say..

A teenage girl is looking for love. Her mother being a prostitute sells this child into the sex industry at the age of twelve. The young girl decides then and there that the love that she is going to find comes with a price. Morally, sex is okay right? I mean its what society wants. Sex sells...come on Britney Spears become a “slave for me”...Lady Gaga has been found in a “bad romance”...and Nicki Minaj well...she’s a “stupid hoe.” (all of these are titles of the singers song) This young girl starts to realize that yes sex is “famous” and will make me feel good...I mean it works for my mom right? This path that she strays down is one of darkness but is acceptable  by society. It starts to make her feel wanted...like she is good enough for these men who do her by night and then leave her by day. Over and over again she asks herself “it works for my mom...why wouldn’t it work for me?” Each child is taught by their parent how to live and this is the way that she knew to live. We all know that we can trust our parents, right? 
     At the age of fourteen this young girl finds herself so engulfed with lust that she ends up at an orgy party...sex.....old men...young men...unrestrained sex...did I mention sex? This night was a night that hopefully would save her life. After that party and at the age of fourteen she found herself pregnant. She understood that in order for her to be healthy she had to eat... only there was one problem...her mom was starving her. Months went by and the girl had enough. Her battle with starvation ended when she made a phone call to the Department of Social Services (DSS). DSS took her out of the home and placed her into a Children’s Home. I will repeat my sentence from earlier...that night hopefully saved her life. Her baby is beautiful, safe and has more than what she needs. This young girls story is still being written. 
     So many times people like this, “sinners” as we would label them, walk into a church building and people stare, judge, whisper, shun them and don’t invite them in. They don’t give them food to eat, clothes to wear, an open arm or a heart of love. What will someone think if we are found talking to them and inviting them in. Heaven forbid they assume that we are “just like them” They are so sinful...I have a good idea...let’s cast the first stone. My intent of this is to not say that all Christians are like this. I know many that would love and care for this girl in a heartbeat. These people would clothe her, love her and give her more food than you could ever imagine. Then there are those who will lean over to their neighbor during church and whisper, “why is she here?” I sadly have heard this from someone before directed towards a local prostitute. We as Christians wonder why society views us as hypocritical, judgmental and at times un-compassionate. If we can’t accept these “types” of people into the church...then why are we here...what good are we...what is our purpose? 
     I am sure most of you are aware that Rahab was a prostitute however...are you aware that she was an ancestor of Jesus...the mother of Boaz a noble man (the husband of Ruth). What ever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me. Matthew 25:40
     I challenge you that the next time a “sinner” walks into the church that you offer a hand of grace, love and acceptance for the sin of another person may actually save your life.