I know that it has been sometime since I have blogged but time seems to slip between my fingers. It seems so crazy that God could take someone out of a place that they loved so well. A place that they fit in and felt as if nothing mattered. Then he puts them in a place where they know no one and says, "okay girl go get em'." This is a place that I don't want to call "home" and yet it is my home. It is hard to leave everything behind and start a new journey in my life. When I think of Indianapolis being a place that I visit...it gives me an empty feeling within my stomach.
Don't get my wrong I love this place and I love what I do. I love the people and the kids. I could not imagine me not being here but it is hard. Ministry is a hard job. It is hard because not only do I carry the burdens of my life but I know carry the burdens of everyone in the church. Ministry is lonely because you feel that people don't really know who you are and it takes a while to warm up to everyone. All and all I know that God has called me here and if he "brings you to it, he will bring you through it."
It had been hard to get settled in and organize my life. Since I have been here I have been trying to organize my office space...and it seems like every time it is organized it gets messed up again. I don't know how this happens:).
Right now I should be working...
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Friday, March 28, 2008
The Room Is Empty
The room at home is now empty. It contains a bed, a dresser, a T.V. stand, a night stand, a small dresser, and a couch. All which do not belong to me. The dinning room at home contains all of my stuff. That stuff will soon be put into the back of my car and will be driven to Portsmouth Ohio. I will soon call that place my home.
Along with this time of transition comes many emotions. Last night was pretty hard for me and it was all becoming too real. I decided to pack up the rest of my stuff, take a shower and go to bed. As I walked into my room there was nothing in it that belonged to me. My cat was lying on the bed asleep, I looked at him and cried. As I layed down in my bed I grabbed Boney and hugged him until I cried myself to sleep. That was the last time that I will sleep in that bed before I move. However with the emotion of sadness comes the emotion of excitement.
I am so excited to have my own place to take care of. Excited for an office, a group of children to teach about God's love, and another church family to serve. This is a major time of change for me and throughout this time God has been preparing me and getting me ready for what is about to change. There have been many times where I haven't felt prepared for what is to come and I wonder if I will ever be prepared.
One thing I know for sure God has been in control of my life and will remain in control.
Today is the day. I will be moving in about 5 more hrs. AHH!!!
Along with this time of transition comes many emotions. Last night was pretty hard for me and it was all becoming too real. I decided to pack up the rest of my stuff, take a shower and go to bed. As I walked into my room there was nothing in it that belonged to me. My cat was lying on the bed asleep, I looked at him and cried. As I layed down in my bed I grabbed Boney and hugged him until I cried myself to sleep. That was the last time that I will sleep in that bed before I move. However with the emotion of sadness comes the emotion of excitement.
I am so excited to have my own place to take care of. Excited for an office, a group of children to teach about God's love, and another church family to serve. This is a major time of change for me and throughout this time God has been preparing me and getting me ready for what is about to change. There have been many times where I haven't felt prepared for what is to come and I wonder if I will ever be prepared.
One thing I know for sure God has been in control of my life and will remain in control.
Today is the day. I will be moving in about 5 more hrs. AHH!!!
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