...if we only realized...

This is a true story... I have chosen to protect the real names of those people involved... for now the girls name is Lucy and the birds name is Charlie.

This is a story of hope, a story of understanding and most importantly a story of faith...

Lucy lived on a farm and one day she heard this bird out in the back trying to chirp...but there was barely any noise coming from the bird. Lucy's heart breaks for any animal who sufferes and she couldn't let this bird die. Lucy's family owns two dogs and she knew that if the bird had tried to get away that the dogs would attack the bird instantly. Lucy doing all that she knew to do put the dogs up and ran to the store to pic up a bird cage and food. She ran into the store and grabbed the only cage that they had... (which just so happened to be $30) along with a big bag of bird seed. Lucy rushed home and ran to the backyard to grab the bird in hopes to save its life. The bird grew very tired and scared. After a long attempt to grab the bird Lucy finally caught the bird and held it in her arms. She then took the bird and put it into the cage along with water and bird seed. This poor bird wouldn't eat or drink. Lucy begged the bird to just eat and that she was there to protect it and give in the nurture the it needed. This bird was slowly dieing so Lucy decided to give it a name "Charlie." Lucy then sang to the bird... silly as it may seem Lucy's love for this bird was unconditional. It grew late at night as the sun had already went down... Lucy left the light on for the bird. When Lucy came back in the morning the bird was dead. IF Charlie would have just understood that Lucy was trying to bring him back to life.

IF WE ONLY REALIZED... that this is the love that God has for each of us... if we could only come to the realization that HE has OUR best interest in mind... IF ONLY...

Left Wanting More...

As each day passes by I am left wanting more. I am left wanting more out of my day and out of my life.

• As many of you know I have moved back home. Things are weird and different.
• I still havnt't found a job and this economy stinks!
• Sometimes I feel as if I don't have friends here. One of my closest friends is back in town from school which has been a huge blessing.
• Right now I am going through a pit... kind of a pit of depression and I feel myself slipping each and every day.
• Leaning on Jesus seriously is the only thing that I feel is keeping me going.
• I want to get on with my life...

Things are so difficult for me right now and I can't explain the way that I feel. Lately at church Pastor has been talking about surrendering. Since I have been living back at home my life has been turned upside down... and it is difficult to deal with. At times I don't feel like I am enough. It hurts and I would like to see a light at the end of this loooooonnnngggg drawwwwwwnnnn out tunnel. I know that there are things in my life that I need to surrender fully to Jesus but the more that I try the harder it gets... I need to make changes in my life and I am continually beating myself up because of it. I need strength, faith and restoration. I need to be restored...

and still I am left wanting more...